Of heartbreaks and melancholies..

It was one September day..It was just an ordinary day like the days before..I was chatting along infront of the computer, listening at the radio, when the phone began to ring..I wasn't expecting who that person is..I talked to him with a giddy smile on my face like a child having her wonderful doll..We talked for just minutes cause i really have to go somewhere..then, "goodbye.." he said.. i placed the phone down and went out.. while i was walking outside, i began to reminisce about him..how he smile, the he laugh so annoying with those sparkling eyes..oh anything! and then..SNAP!! what was i thinking?! I'm not supposed to think about those things! ERASE..ERASE..going back..Monday came..and I felt excitement..step by step..while going up the stairs..thinking where he was..2nd floor..hmm..full of cute little monster kids! one step away then i reached heaven! oh. it was 3rd floor.(hehe) Smile..Relax..then walk confidently.. "hi.." he said.. i coudn't do anything but to smile..his smile made my heart melt! his eyes are so wonderful that I can't stop looking at it! *wink* Everyday became more exciting...My world became more wonderful..it was as if i am the happiest person..

Not until days..weeks..and months passed by..I thought It was just like the fairy tales..girl meets boy and they live happily ever after..but no..i realized that love isn't always about happy ending..love is all about sacrificing anything you have to just to save something..Truly, some things are just not meant to last.. let's leave it that way..With that love, came my heartbreak, my heart was shattered apart..Not even a single feather went down on me.. oh heaven, what happened to my angel?!

how about all those sweet days? all those promising words you told me? all of it..are all..just lies..? but i dont want to hear the answer anymore..because it might hurt..but its the reality of life.. people come and go..some are for fun, some are for tears.. while most of them are just passing by..but i dont know which of them do u belong..but i just want you to know that i dont regret meeting you..and if ever i am to live my life again..i would still choose to meet you.

It still hurts, but I know it’ll be over soon, I know I’ll forget this feeling I have for you. I know…I know…I HOPE…

This is just an ordinary day like the days before..I am writing this article, writing about him..remebering the past..when i suddenly remembered one line from one special song..here i am, holding back the tears from my eyes while trying to smile to make my day okay..every memory keeps coming back..